“The signature casualty which people never talk about,” Terrill says, “is loss of genitalia. It’s something Terrill describes as: “When you see people that you love in that way, people that you know would die for you, as you would for them, when you see them killed or maimed, it goes very deep.” You cannot, in precis, see your best friend’s head blown off and think straight afterwards. When the argument was successfully made that Blackman was suffering from an adjustment disorder, one of its core elements was the emotional impact of this doomed comradeship. When you go to war, you’re not actually fighting for Queen and country or for the Afghan government or for a flag, you’re fighting for the man on your left and the man on your right.” “When we came back to Brize Norton,” Terrill remembers, “waiting for our families, our blood families, wives, children, mothers, fathers, the Marines would always hesitate because they had become the primary family themselves. He’s not making a schmaltzy point about brotherhood, but rather a point about the impossibility of reacclimatising, once you’ve been torn out of the normal world and regrown in this petri dish of love and violence. I did that brutal, gruelling training at 55, most of the people I was training with were in their early 20s, but they became lifelong friends.”Ĭhris Terrill when embedded with Marines. “A form of love between us,” Terrill says. There was something in the training that other soldiers in the unit, along with Terrill himself – even though he remained a journalist and was never a combatant – all describe. To sidestep this, Terrill trained as a Marine himself, 32 weeks of grindingly hard physical and mental toil, by the end of which, he says, “you are at the level of an Olympic athlete, both in terms of cardiovascular and upper body strength,” and you have the green beret’s “way of seeing: loyalty, unselfishness, determination and perhaps the most important, cheerfulness in the face of adversity”. Generally, a journalist has to be babysat on the frontline, they need six soldiers looking after them and it interrupts their connection to the unit, essentially because they’re a bit annoying. Terrill, speaking over Zoom from his home in London, describes how he came to be embedded in Helmand province.
SHOT OF LOVE TV SHOW TRIAL
Yet this story of his trial and eventual (partial) exoneration, directed by Stephen Bennett, told through the footage and testimony of anthropologist and film-maker Chris Terrill – who was embedded in Blackman’s unit – doesn’t even leave you with enough solid ground to know exactly what you think about murder. And in the Channel 4 documentary War and Justice: The Case of Marine A, one prosecuting lawyer still takes the view that “it was a murder, by an armed soldier, of somebody who was injured, who’d been dragged down in front of him, and was shot in cold blood”. In 2017, he was released from prison, having successfully argued on appeal that a mental health condition known as an “adjustment disorder” had significantly impaired his rational decision making.īlackman was the first British soldier to be convicted of a battlefield murder on foreign soil since the second world war. That much is undisputed: later, at a court martial in 2013, Blackman would argue that he shot the man when he believed him already to be dead, but this was not credited and he was found guilty of murder, dismissed from the marines and sentenced to life imprisonment, to serve a minimum of 10 years. O n 15 September 2011, a wounded Taliban insurgent was shot by a Marine, Al Blackman.